Tendencies

I have a tendency to internalize my feelings. I've never had anyone to share them with before. I don't know how to open up really. Guess I take after my mom in that regards. Its always easy to share happiness, because everyone likes a happy person. Its harder to share sorrow because no one really likes being around a sad person. I think since I tend to project my feelings, I stay away from people when I am sad or angry.
If I get to a point where I can't pretend that everything is alright, I hide away. I guess its because I've never had anyone to help me through my sorrows.
I know...sob story right? Poor me...
Guess that's why I don't share. I end up thinking its just a pity party for one.